What is wrong with HER?

I do not hate her but I really dislike her and that is really embarrassing. I am ashamed not only of her but how I felt about her.

She is a victim, always played the victim and she is really good at it.

She's an emotional vampire.

She takes advantage of people and then has the audacity to complain it's not enough.

You never know what to expect from her.

One day she's so sweet you gag on the sugar she's exuding.

The next day you're choking on the bitterness she radiates.

She might not make contact with me for a few weeks.

She might call me everyday, several times per day.

She never really has anything of substance to share.

She's not a very brilliant woman.

She's passive-aggressive and it's frustrating beyond belief.

She's the queen of emotional terrorism.

She loves to twist your words and turn them against you.

She loves to call your sibling and 'report' you for your offenses against her.

She is well beyond irresponsible.

She annoys me beyond words. she nauseates me.

She's my mother ...

Visa

These days kept running round doing visa. So much stuffs to do!! Hiahh. Yesterday, went to Lee Choo hock's seminar. Met a few friends there too. I'm so sleepy now. Sitting in car again. I'm not allowed to sleep more than 8hours now. Sad. Mom kept saying 8 hours is already more than enough ( FYI she slept less than 7 hours everyday) ugh is she even human? -- I want to sleep. Spm left less than 13 days. Omg

Bitterness

Well. You know what? My mom found out about the phone yesterday night. I don't know how she found out, but it just happened. I was stunned, sad, confused and angry at that moment. I knew i should have get rid of it as soon as possible, but I did not, instead I just leave it in my cupboard.

Well, now I am gonna get as low as possible, to hide my existence from the world, to let the others think of my presence in the world is not absolute, but optional. It is because, this way provides the best condition for me to studies without any distractions.

Without me knowing, my dad did something without my permission. He accepted the Abbey College Cambridge's offer yesterday morning. I was happy yet upset at the same time. Happy because my dad trusted me. Upset because he trusted me too much. I'd perfer going for foundation.

And one more thing,

MY MOM KEEPS ON CHECKING ON ME ON EVERY SINGLE THING.
thats the suckiest thing that I had ever faced.

Well, the old saying - what comes, we take.
Well, face it then. I know I can.

Depression

I think im sufering from depression since last week till now.. i cant eat cant sleep cant think right cant do anything properly.. Hiahhhhhhhhhhhh Life suck. i hate this man. i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate you!! Yeah you! YOU! whatever. i dont wanna know dont wanna care. i hate you. You broke my heart, and now you smash it into pieces. when are you gonna burn it to ashes huh? THIS PAIN IS UNBEARABLE. =( I cant cry. i wanna cry out but.. i couldn't.. ever since i when through that stupid pain bearer quest. I couldnt cry anymore. i just cant..... cant.. =(( D; ='(

Tobasco

Lately, I discovered tobasco is a really spicoius sauce. It tastes so good that I even tried drinking it. In fact, I drank it almost everyday since idk when. It's so delicousssss but.. There's a let down, it had side effects. Wait, it's suppose to be it's EFFECT.. Which is .. Spicyyyy! Ahhhhhhhhh! The best part ( or you could say the worst) is that it does not only burn in your mouth or throat, but your nostrils and eyes too! Causing me to cryyyyy. LOL anyway... Today is the day before the last day of trails and FYI, it's my friends birthdayyy!!! Mr. Lye Chuen Shennnn's!!! Happy birthday yeahhhhhh!! XD

stress

Aghhhh exam. I hate exam!!!! Arghhh the worst thing is that I can't study at all when im under a huge pressure. Hiahhhhhhh.. Stilll sick. Damn the haze. Adding coughing to my sick list --

sick --

Damn... Sick sick sick. I hate being sick D: arghhhhhh slight fever headache, stomachache and the worst is.. I unable to control my emotions any longer.. Arh.. Dang.. Wednesday I only go school dy.. Hehe..