Tuesday, November 30, 2010

I Don't Give A Damn!

My chinese essay! It could have sworn that i really did not work hard to write it! I wrote it half-heartedly! Damn! If I were any better and more concentrate on my writing, it could have been much better! It was a total off! I got only 2 marks in my chinese essay and i THOUGHT it DID NOT MATTER! but now, IT dragged me off the line! how am i gonna get in less than 360 in CLHS?This is THE WORST THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME!!!
MY LAST YEAR in CHUNG LING HIGH SCHOOL WILL NOT and NEVER end in a mere C class student! Now all comes down to my Chemistry. If my chemistry is more than 70 or 80 then I'll be save... but for chemisry, i dont think I'll get more than 70. I estimated 60+ only.. I hope I'll get better marks even if it proved that my estimation is wrong.
B class, get into a good university, study engineering or as physicist, then good job, raise a family, live off the rest of my life with a good, loving, kind, educated wife.. seem to have gone because of C class...
HELP ME !! God! Have mercy on Me! Please help me!!! Hel....ellppp... me....

Monday, November 15, 2010

2nd Last Day of School.

Walao.. all talk about steamboat liao.. donno tmrw got do or not.. hahaha
all subject exam le except english 2 which is tmrw, the last day of school

I found all my SPBT books! yippee!! hahahaha
thursday goin to watch harry potter le..
A.K.A. Emma Watson 7.

hahaha thats all for now.

Ah ya and one more thing.. Emily found me Blog.. -.-
and whos that 'nick'? hahaha...

GoGo KCC.

Holiday time gonna do more vids le :D

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Stuffs happened and such..

Woohoo! PMR finished! yeah! weeeee...???

I'm form 4 this year.. PMR finished or not have nothing to do with me -.-

Okay, get to the point!
I got my piano exam result, it just came out on the 24th September 2010
and I....
PASSED !!!!
Barely passed though, a 102 marks over 150.
All part passed but Scales and Oral tests.
Scales -> 11/18 <12>
Oral test -> 13/21 <14>

haha..

and on 4th October this year.. Yippee! My Birthday, Ma Very Own Burfday! xD
Got splashed by water.. and ....... Gangbang -.-
Water is fine but Gangbang... i think its a bit too much, sumore take video.. -.-'''

Okay... um... one more thing..
EXAM !!

ARGH !!!
Exam coming!! all so hard.. Add math.. Chemistry, Physics, Sejarah, Biology... all except.. Modern Math! xD its quite easy.. but donno what question my school's gonna give..
gerli nia~

So.. Thats all about it, haha

May God Bless Me :D

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Piano and such.. MUSICS

I like music. Incase you all did not know about it. I really, really like music. If you take music out of me, then i wont be me anymore.

After the Grade 5 Piano ABRSM examination, i learn wuite a few great songs. Songs like Fur Elise ( I've always wanted to play its full version, and now i got it!) and Ballade Pour Adeline. My piano teacher said it was all easy pieces for Grade 1 & 2 players, but it might be the truth, because it only took me 2 weeks per song. But man! I am having lots of fun with my piano, Yeahhh!!

And recently i wrote a song, using my beloved, black, shiny, acoustic guitar. The song is wuite weird though, sounded like a RNB.. i like pop rock better. Thats all about me and my life with musics.

I like wrting songs, playing it, and singing it, cause i can just do about anything with it, i control the songs i play or sing, reducing the tempo, fancy some notes, woohoo! so much fun. I am so glad that my dad force me to learn piano when i was standard 6. At first, it was tough, but eventually, the songs will take you to a new place, where imaginations could be form and Waaa.. so to those who learn musics, dont let go of it, as it is your treasure, which no one can take away.

Um.. ive got nothing more to say, but.. i still hope for an A class next year. Next year is my last year in chung ling and i dont wanna graduate with C class.. Pray for me and help me XD

Saturday, July 10, 2010

What will happen on Monday in CLHS?

I'm gonna bring the moral thing and KCC stuff
Way Yang is bringing some outsiders and oversears
(the furthest is Chung Ling Butterworth, well its over the sea right?)
3 girls and a man.
hahaa~
I'm excited but.. Chung Ling will never be boy+girl school at my time..
haha
maybe this is try out for our school XD
:D

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Sad and frustrated

Sigh...

Skies are blue, fields are green
Why are bad things always in,
Life is grey, health is pink
Why is life always unhappy.

Sometimes i rather play when im pressured and chose not to study,
I mean during my exam time la..
need more slef control..
and now is still am here writing my blog instead of having a good night sleep! ugh!
man! this is life! ughhh~!!
listening to christian songs makes me feel good.. lol most of the time :D

Friday, June 25, 2010

Is Majority Always Right?

RRRRIIINNNGGGGGG!!!!!!!
I reached out my left hand and silenced the alarm bell. Though tired and sleepy, I got up and dressed. I went to my table, took hold of a pen and wrote a note:

I’ll be back as soon as possible
Love,
Ablin

I hated being at home. Day after day, I would get into arguments with my obnoxious brother who thought he was Mr. Know-It-All. My ideals always contradicted with his. Our favorite subject of harsh debate was about the Mesatites. I thought that the Mesatites must be treated the same as us. But he thought that they must be treated akin to slaves. Actually, mum and dad were on his side. During the Mesa War 5 years ago, the Mesatites killed dad’s brother (who was a soldier). Eventually, the Mesatites lost the war. Thus, their condition now. Nevertheless, why should one hold a grudge for so long? It was our fault in the beginning to attack the Mesatites. Once, I tried to reason with dad. The result? A flat ear and some glaring red marks on my face.

How can I, one man, wrestle with my brother, mother, and father all at the same time and win?

So, with the purpose of releasing stress, I frequently escaped from home bleak home. Now, back to my story!

Silently and steadily, I trod down the stairs. I took my house key in hand, ready to unlock the door. I stepped on something soft and strangely furry.

Meow!!!

“Shucks!!! What is my brother’s stupid cat doing here?!!” I whispered in bewilderment. I zoomed to the entrance and scuttled off.

I ran until I reached the Yol Road. I sat down on a bench to reenergize my sore legs. I giggled when I recalled the cat’s anguished

Meow!!!

I should kick the cat more often to release extra stress!

Somehow, my mind went into a serious state of thought. I thought about the Mesatites. They were being treated like dirt. I always thought of the Mesatites as friends. Regrettably, not many of my kind agreed. Why must the Mesatites suffer? Why……..

Suddenly, I was alerted by a commotion. There was a crowd rushing towards the town square. The crowd was wild. I was like a single drop of water being carried by an insurmountable tidal wave. The air tasted different- a mixture of anxiety and excitement.

Is the majority this enormous?

I stood amongst the crowd like a white elephant. My eyes “paced to and fro” glimpsing the people’s expressions. Most were just confused. Yet they followed the majority as if it was a drug. However, there were still some lonely faces, even in a crowd this huge.

All of a sudden, I felt a large impact on my shoulder. I was flung down. Instinctively, I directed my hands downwards to cushion my fall. I slammed the ground. Nobody came to help me up. They were too caught up in going with the flow.

I felt invisible… and lonely.

I forced myself up before the thundering crowd trampled over me. I stumbled for a while. Soon, I too was walking with the crowd. I took a look at my hands. They were bleeding.

Is this how the minority feels?

I wished for someone to come and take the pain away. I wished for someone to just…just come and talk to me. No one came.

Does the minority always have to defend themselves alone?

I reached the town square. In the middle was a tall, young man on a raised platform. He stood bravely in the midst of an intimidating crowd. He held a microphone and spoke into it.

“Citizens, we are destined to prosper! We have won the Mesa War 5 years ago. Thus, let us reap the benefits by enslaving the Mesatites!”

I was stunned. It suddenly dawned on me that I was against the majority. I cared for the Mesatites.

I was lost in thought. I stood there immobilized as my soul traveled back in time to the period of the Mesa War, 5 years ago.

Darkness…

I opened my eyes. There were people all around me. The Mesatites and my own people were killing each other. I watched as our army invaded the Mesatites’ homes. They killed them, giving no mercy to men and women alike.

I felt incredibly nauseous. I began to panic. I tried to flee. But what I saw shocked me. There was only a sea of corpses around me. I had nowhere to flee. Yet I ran.

My right foot grazed something and I fell to the ground. I pushed myself up and almost ran again but I noticed someone lying beside me.

A young Mesatite girl. I attempted to pick her up. She screamed.

“Do not worry. I’ll get you to somewhere safe.”

She looked at me with her innocent eyes and nodded. She had a cross-shaped wound on her left cheek. The wound was quite deep and it was bleeding. I used my sleeve to clean it.

“What’s your name?”

She did not answer. It was obvious that she was too weak. Then I heard a coarse voice coming from behind.

“Don’t move.”

I turned around.

“I said don’t move!!”

A soldier. He was pointing his rifle at me. No, he was aiming at the girl I held in my arms.

“Don’t shoot!”

The man was fast. He used the butt of his rifle to knock me out. The girl fell to the ground. I struggled to remain conscious. I heard an explosion. I passed out.

I was back in the current world. But the memories stirred up the sealed emotions inside me. Hatred, anger, sadness… they all came out.

I elbowed the crowd out of the way, charging towards the young speaker. My body was overflowing with mindless rage.

But I stopped. I knew I would have been murdered by the crowd if I had done that. However, the anger was still burning within me. I wanted to help the Mesatites so badly. But I could not find the power.

Then I remembered.

I remembered why I had this undying resolve to protect the Mesatites.

“Please, can you spare us some food?”

I gave her my sandwich. The Mesatite woman took it and divided it among her children. They had barely enough. One of her children asked:

“Can we have more?”

Her mother quickly silenced her. She said:

“We have all we want from this young lad- someone who respects difference and understands us.”

Someone who respects difference and understands us……..

I jumped on the platform and snatched the microphone from the speaker.

“Is the majority always right?”

The crowd went silent.

“I don’t care what the majority chooses. The Mesaties are capable of living in harmony with us! They are not slaves!!”

I could not think of anything else to say. I knelt down and shut my eyes, prepared for the crowd’s onslaught.

“The boy speaks the truth!”

I looked to the left where the voice came from. I saw a man with his hands raised.

“Thank you, man! I was going to do that but you did it first!”

Another shout, now from the right.
One by one, more and more people raised theirs hands to support my words.
Then, one courageous man led the crowd to shout:

“Mesatites not slaves!!”

I slowly circled and looked at the crowd. The echo of the shouts never ceased. It grew louder by the moment. I smiled. I finally knew the answer to that question.

Is the majority always right?
The majority might be right or wrong but in every circumstance; we must always do the right thing. For even if you are small, you can grow stronger. And if you think that the minority is that small, look into history and see for yourself, that history is changed because one man challenges the majority and influences the majority. He becomes the majority himself.

The shouts ended and the crowd dispersed. Then I noticed a young Mesatite girl who was staring at me. She had a cross-shaped scar on her left cheek. Ecstatic, I jumped down from the platform and gave chase after her as I wondered what truly happened on that fateful day on the battlefield……..

Thursday, June 24, 2010

My writing about Swift

TAYLOR ALISON SWIFT

Taylor Swift wants to show why she was the best, so she insisted on writing a kind of song, songs which make connection, which also have the ability to reach out and hug, laugh or cry with a listener. “I won’t be satisfied until I have a song for each person, for each thing.” stressed Swift again to the reporter. And the sparkling centerpieces - the 2009 American Music Award for Artist of the Year, and the 2009 CMA Award for Entertainer of the Year, country music’s highest honor. Swift is the youngest artist ever, and only the sixth female act in history, to win this prestigious award.

She wrote songs and sings them at karaoke contests, festivals, and fairs around her hometown. When she was 12 years old, she devoted an entire summer to writing a 350-paged novel, which remains unpublished. Her first major show was a well-received performance at the Bloomsburg Fair. In 2008, she earned her high school diploma through home schooling at the age of 18.

Taylor Alison Swift was born in 18th December, 1989 and was raised in Wyomissing, Pennsylvania as the first child and only daughter of Andrea (née Finlay), a homemaker, and Scott Swift, a stockbroker. Her grandmother was an opera singer. Swift has a younger brother, Austin. When she was in fourth grade, Swift won a national poetry contest with a three-page poem entitled "Monster in My Closet".

FEARLESS – one Taylor Swift’s album, has taken a flying leap. Her achievements with her second album have been nothing less than staggering. At times, Taylor seems to be rewriting music history on a weekly basis. It’s safe to say Taylor Swift knows a thing or two about being FEARLESS. “To me, fearless isn’t not having fears,” explains Swift. “It’s not that you’re not afraid of anything. I think that being fearless is having a lot of fears, but you jump anyway.”

Even now, with her life barreling down the country music fast lane Taylor still makes it a priority to put the guitar, pen, and paper she keeps nearby to good use. Writing songs helps her stay grounded as her career orbits in the stratosphere. But for listeners popping in Taylor’s CD and expecting to hear a laundry list of lyrics on the plight of country music superstar rising through the ranks, FEARLESS is going to surprise you.

Friday, June 18, 2010

18/06/2010

It was Friday..
I went to church
Practice for Grace and Samson's Wedding presentation
& the 125th anniversary St'pauls Celebration...

I actually brought a CAMERA without BATTERY in it !!!
Walao!! DAMN IT !!
i though i can get a few pictures but.. LOL
donno larh..
Left my Battery home charging..

Practiced
-> Drama
-> Dance
-> Singing
-> and lots more! LOL

that all for now.. will keep update soon..

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

CF camp 2010

Phew! It was fun.. WAY fun man! too bad for those who did not join..
but it doesnt mean that you can't join it next year, so.. Woohoo!
Thanks to Pastor Victor and Pastor Wilson which help a lot in the camp
Thanks to the committees, and those who have help in the camp and
Special thanks to to the campers. LOL


I'm in High-5 group this year
Apartment 2 and
Happy 5


High-5 got the Best team (lots of sweet and LOLIPOPS !! yiipee!)
Apartment 2's got the Best dorm award (which is bookmark.. LOL)
Happy 5's got Best Drama (Happy mart + High-5 = Happy-5, that how we got the name)
Anyway.. Although we were exausted but it was really, REALLY fun.. WOOHOOO !!!
Check out the pics i've got !! woohoo!

1st of all.. -> The Wave.. haha

Meeting.. 1st night

2nd day morning prayer meeting..

There goes Way Yang sleeping..
He cant wake up for morning devotion ==


acting cool huh!? so not man!
Played water games.. haha~
And 3rd day morning...
there goes the....
High-5 !!! the BEST man! LOL Praise the Lord!
High-5!!!
It's a High-5 bread and a TV show,
to not get fat you have to know,
1234, high-5! ; 1234, high-5!
haha.. look at Jeremy.. LOL
The End..
Cool right?
Then join this next year! LOL

Monday, June 7, 2010

A cold March wind danced around the dead of night in Dallas as the doctor walked into the small hospital room of Diana Blessing. She was still groggy from surgery. Her husband, David, held her hand as they braced themselves for the latest news. That afternoon of March 10, 1991, complications had forced Diana, only 24-weeks pregnant, to undergo an emergency Cesarean to deliver couple's new daughter, Dana Lu Blessing. At 12 inches long and weighing only one pound nine ounces, they already knew she was perilously premature. Still, the doctor's soft words dropped like bombs. "I don't think she's going to make it," he said, as kindly as he could. "There's only a 10-percent chance she will live through the night, and even then, if by some slim chance she does make it, her future could be a very cruel one"
Numb with disbelief, David and Diana listened as the doctor described the devastating problems Dana would likely face if she survived.
She would never walk, she would never talk, she would probably be blind, and she would certainly be prone to other catastrophic conditions from cerebral palsy to complete mental retardation, and on and on. "No! No!" was all Diana could say. She and David, with their 5-year-old son Dustin, had long dreamed of the day they would have a daughter to become a family of four. Now, within a matter of hours, that dream was slipping away But as those first days passed, a new agony set in for David and Diana. Because Dana's underdeveloped nervous system was essentially 'raw', the lightest kiss or caress only intensified her discomfort, so they couldn't even cradle their tiny baby girl against their chests to offer the strength of their love. All they could do, as Dana struggled alone beneath the ultraviolet light in the tangle of tubes and wires, was to pray that God would stay close to their precious little girl. There was never a moment when Dana suddenly grew stronger. But as the weeks went by, she did slowly gain an ounce of weight here and an ounce of strength there.
At last, when Dana turned two months old. her parents were able to hold her in their arms for the very first time.
And two months later, though doctors continued to gently but grimly warn that her chances of surviving, much less living any kind of normal life, were next to zero, Dana went home from the hospital, just as her mother had predicted. Five years later, when Dana was a petite but feisty young girl with glittering gray eyes and an unquenchable zest for life. She showed no signs whatsoever of any mental or physical impairment. Simply, she was everything a little girl can be and more. But that happy ending is far from the end of her story. One blistering afternoon in the summer of 1996 near her home in Irving, Texas, Dana was sitting in her mother's lap in the bleachers of a local ball park where her brother Dustin's baseball team was practicing. As always, Dana was chattering nonstop with her mother and several other adults sitting nearby when she suddenly fell silent. Hugging her arms across her chest, little Dana asked, "Do you smell that?" Smelling the air and detecting the approach of a thunderstorm, Diana replied, "Yes, it smells like r ain." Dana closed her eyes and again asked, "Do you smell that?" Once again, her mother replied, "Yes, I think we're about to get wet. It smells like rain." Still caught in the moment, Dana shook her head, patted her thin shoulders with her small hands and loudly announced, "No, it smells like Him. It smells like God when you lay your head on His chest." Tears blurred Diana's eyes as Dana happily hopped down to play with the other children. Before the rains came, her daughter's words confirmed what Diana and all the members of the extended Blessing family had known, at least in their hearts, all along. During those long days and nights of her first two months of her life, when her nerves were too sensitive for them to touch her, God was holding Dana on His chest and it is His loving scent that she remembers so well. You now have 1 of 2 choices. You can either pass this on and let other people catch the chills like you did or you can delete this and act like it didn't touch your heart like it did mine. IT'S YOUR CALL! "I can do all things in Him who strengthens me." This morning when the Lord opened a window to Heaven, He saw me, and He asked: "My child, what is your greatest wish for today?" I responded: "Lord please, take care of the person who is reading this message, their family and their special friends. They deserve it and I love them very much" The love of God is like the ocean, you can see its beginning, but not its end. ________________________ This message works on the day you receive it. Let us see if it is true. _____________ ANGELS EXIST but some times, since they don't all have wings, we call them FRIENDS. _________________________ Pass this on to your true friends. Something good will happen to you at 11:00 in the morning; something that you have been waiting to hear. This is not a joke; someone will call you by phone or will speak to you about something that you were waiting to hear.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

24th April

My right arm.. ugh... getting worse and worse
must stop doing handstands and flare.. ouch!
just now do handstand time, my weak right arm gave up ...
and i fell with my head down...
fortunately i knock my head to the wall first before coming down
think of what would have happened if i fall straight down..
my left hand cannot support my body weight, too weak
My right hand used to be able to support my body weight with just it
but now....
weaker than left.. ouch
Help ME ~~!!!

Friday, April 23, 2010

whats todays date??? i forgot dy

Tmr bringing Camera~!!! hey hey :D
life is misarable
but yesterday she sms-ed me, haha
im SO HAPPY !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, April 19, 2010

10/04/2010

Wah.. today i do hand stand in school.. hehe
then Recess time, i saw Lynn walking out from canteen..
Then,
I Asked
Her
....
“跟我说华语。。。”
Then you know what she repllied ?
“不要! ”

Lol... She already spoke chinese.. ==

19/04/2010

Wah, today oral test in front of teachers in bilik Gerakan..
Kia ka chiu zun er... geli nia
then go kem motivasi...
BORING~!
then go home time raining, Justin's Bag pecah ki.. haha !
Then stalk ppl for a while XD
hehe~

Sunday, April 18, 2010

18/04/2010

HAHA ! my daddie is back~!
he bought me lotsa chocholates.. hehe..
others got snatched away by my lil' sis..
sob
dad says give it to her, she is younger...
damn it!
haha
tmr GERAKAN.. donno what it meant but i know i need to speak in front lotsa teacher
wish me luck!

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Hm...

sigh...
lately i've always been sigh-ing...
sadness and happiness all goreng together already..
sometimes i can feel very happy, when i play songs o piano or strums guitar..
then out of sudden, a heavy weight sank onto me again...
am i not good enough?
not good at studies...
not althelete also
but maybe good comedian, haha...
dancer.. maybe larh but cannot do one - hand stand, or front flip... lol
Just a normal guy...
WHATS MY PURPOSE OF LIFE ?????????
WHAT IS IT ??? I'VE GOT NOTHING !!!!!!!!!! NOTHING AT ALL !!!!!!
I HATE MYSELF! UGH!
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suicide?

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maybe not..
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why should i do that?
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i still have friends, best friends..

Thursday, April 15, 2010

School - 15/04/2010

Today Lynn didnt turn up... lol
The yesterday and the day before i can see her a lot.
well couse there's chess competition..
When i asked her about 'her'
She just say:" i dont wanna talk anything about 'her' "
and she said the presents i prepared for her birthday is childish...
haha..
Walao eh... sorry..
Sorry?
*starts dancing sorry sorry* haha!
A B C D E F G
G?
Gee Gee Gee Gee *starts dancing again*.
thats what me and my friends do everyday... haha.
tmrw English Oral Test, shouldn't be any problem to me :D
The title is "Whats your thinking of happiness"
hehe... you know what i'll say XD
LOL HAHA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY ~~!!!
and tmrw im staying back for basketball in school =)

Sunday, April 11, 2010

11/04/2010

Ah... im sick...
my dad teaches me how to drive again, hooray!
hehe...

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Karate

Tmrw Karate Competition!!!
I bought the mouthguard (the thing that protects your teeth from breaking) this morning and guess what? I LOSS IT !!!
My dad teach my sister drive again, he dont want teach me because i didnt finish homework...

Hooray!
I...
I...
I..
UPDATED MY BLOG !!!!
YA AHAHAHA !!!

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Cross Country

Owh Owh Owh , BRAVO !!! haha...
I ranked 147 in that Cross country race! Yippee!
Even though i'm having fever and sore throat... haha! =.='''
-------------------------------------
Tian Yu Oh the Cool - 31
Justin Chee Jia Qing - 61
Christopher Soon - 147
Lim Quan Lin - 150++
Lim Kai Xuan - 160++
Lim Way Yang - 201++
Loh Chuin Jin - 300++
Teh Khai Yang - 350++
--------------------------------------
The Used to be class c4's record

After the race, Me and Jia Qing go play with the less than 12 year old's 'instrument'. Thats fun XD
then Aunty came... and go home ...
Teehee!
Blog updated :D

Friday, March 19, 2010

Something I've done...

I deleted her from MSN,
Facebook & my phone's memory...
Man...
I even tore out things i wrote about her
from my book

Gosh...
I just cant study with her presence...
I'll just need to wait until CF camp arrives and
start everything again, like we have just met,then ...
I'll see what awaits me in the future
Please guide me Lord! For everything and always I'll serve only You!
...
I want back my normal life, with friends and family,
with no worries
Ish...
Walao eh...
May God Bless Me,

Emmanuel.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Essay Writing

"Well done, team," said our coach. " Now we are in shipshape for the Winter Basketball Tournament. With our star player, Christopher, in top form, the National Champianship will be ours!" " Dismiss!". Then we took our belongings and went home, waiting for the day of the tournament which would be held that weekend.

I am Christopher. Everyone calls me Chris. I am a third-year high school student this year, therefore thi is the last year for me to participate in the Winter Basketball Tournament. I am a skillful three-point-shooter and I had been training for hours during that last week.

Three days before the match began, disaster struck. I was praticing my three-point-shooting as usual. The majestic sun shone on brightly and scorched my skin, it felt as if I was on fire! When I thought I was giving out my last shot, everthing went blank. I heard a loud thud and nothing more.

I passed out.

I opened my eyes and looked around."Where am I?". However, I was too tired to get up so I remained lying in the bed and closed my eyes.

After a while, I woke up. I realised im in a dark room. It was very quiet and I have a bad feeling as if something bad is going to happen. I sat up straight and reached for the switch to open the lights. Then I heard footsteps approaching. The lights was turned on. Then I saw my father entering the room. "Haha... I was just imagining things" I murmured. "Son! How are you feeling? We were so worried! You should thank Lynn for saving you. She saw you lying motionless at the open basketball court." I nodded as a sign of agreement.

Then something caught my eyes. Ilooked at the digital clock hung at the side of my bed. It wrote

" 17/12/2009"

My dad saw my expressions and answered my unasked question." I'm afraid today is the day of the basketball game. The basketball team lost by 67 - 70."

My heart sank. If only I had been there, my team could have won the game. Part of it was because it was my last year to play but most of it was because I should have taken better care so that I would not have fallen ill.

During that remaining three days in hospital, no one visited me. I was so alone. And the same words keep repeating in my mind - lost, weak, ignorant, useless. Man! I was so pesimistic!

On Monday evening, I was discharge. On the next morning, I went straight to the school's indoor basketball court and apologised to the coach and teammates. Suprisingly, the coach replied :" It's not just you, Hafiz and Jason was sick too!" At that very moment, both of them walk in. We all laughed! The Three of us have contrated a viral fever!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Exam over...

Exam's over already... doesnt feel like that to me...
everyday, mom wants me to study, expecially chinese... GOSH !
Chinese is so hard.. need to memories those 'idioms' and such...

Chem got 68 marks.. SO WHAT? I just barely pass.. At least must 80 marks!
Bio... no hope liao...
Physics... 2 Questions didnt do, which is 20 marks gone...
Walao eh...

Donno what to blog anymore...
... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
I just feel sad everyday... for some reason...
All because of 'her'... she says im annoying her still... which makes things worst...
haiz...
Life is full of misery...
All i can do is Pray...

lol...

The Lord's Prayer

"Our father who art in heaven..."

YES

Don't interrupt me, I'm praying...

BUT YOU CALLED ME

Called you? I didn't call you. I'm praying...


"Our father who art in heaven..."

THERE YOU DID AGAIN

Did what?

CALLED ME. YOU SAID,"OUR FATHER WHO ART IN HEAVEN". HERE I AM, WHAT'S ON YOUR MIND?

But I didn't mean anything by it. I was, you know, just saying some prayers for the day. I always say the Lord's Prayer. It makes me feel good, kind of like getting a duty done.

ALL RIGHT, GO ON.

"Hallowed be Thy name..."

HOLD IT, WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT?

By what?

BY "HALLOWED ME THY NAME"?

It means ... it means, good grief, I don't know what it means. How should I know?
It's just part of the prayer. By the way, What does it mean?

IT MEANS HONOURED, HOLY WONDERFUL.

Hey, that makes sense. I never thought what hallowed, meant before.

"Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven..."

DO YOU REALLY MEAN THAT?

Sure, why not?

WHAT ARE YOU DOING ABOUT IT?

Doing, Nothing, I guess. I think it would be kind of neat if YOU got control of everthing down here like you have up there.

HAVE I GOT CONTROL OF YOU?

Well, I go to church.

THAT ISNT WHAT I ASKED YOU. WHATS ABOUT YOUR BAD TEMPER? YOU REALLY HAVE A PROBLEM THERE, YOU KNOW. ANG WHAT ABOUT THE KIND OF BOOKS YOU READ?

Stop picking on me! I'm just as good as some of the rest of these phonies at the church.

EXCUSE ME. I THOUGHT YOU WERE PRAYING FOR MY WILL TO BE DONE. IF THAT IS TO HAPPEN, IT WILL HAVE TO START WITH THE ONES WHO ARE PRAYING FOR IT, LIKE YOU, FOR EXAMPLE.

Oh all right. I guess I do have some hangups. Now that you mention it, I could probably name some others.

SO COULD I.

I haven't thought about it very much until NOW, but really would like to vut out some of the things. I would like, you know, to be really free.

GOOD... NOW YOU ARE GETTING SOMEWHERE. WE'LL WORK TOGETHER, YOU AND I, SOME VICTORIES CAN TRULY BE WON ... I'M PROUD OF YOU.

Look, Lord I need to finish up here. This is taking a lot longer than it usually does.

"Give us this day our daily bread."

YOU NEED TO CUT OUT THE BREAD, YOU'RE OVERWEIGHT AS IT IS.

Hey, wait a minute! What is this, "Criticize Me Day" ? Here I was doing my religious duty and all of sudden You break in and remind me of all my hangups.

PRAYING IS A DANGEROUS THING. YOU COULD WIND UP CHANGED, YOU KNOW. THAT'S WHAT I AM TRYING TO GET ACROSS TO YOU, YOU CALLED ME, AND I AM HERE. IT'S TOO LATE TO STOP NOW. KEEP ON WITH YOUR PRAYING. I'M INTERESTED IN THE NEXT PART OF YOUR PRAYER.

WELL, GO ON...

I'm scared to.

SCARED? SCARED OF WHAT?

I know what you'll say.

TRY ME AND SEE.

"Forgive our debts, as we foegive out debtors."

WHAT ABOUT BEVERLY?

See? I knew it! I knew you would bring her up! Lord, she tells lies about me, and cheated me out of some money. She never paid back that debt she owed me. I sworn to get even with her!

BUT YOUR PRAYER? WHAT ABOUT YOUR PRAYER?

I didn't mean it.

WELL, AT LEAST YOU ARE HONEST. BUT IT IS NOT MUCH FUN CARRYING THAT LOAD OF BITTERNESS AROUND INSIDE YOU, IS IT?

No, but I'll feel better as soon as I get even. Boy, have I got some plans for old Beverly!

She'll wish she never didi me harm!

YOU WON'T FEEL ANY BETTER. YOU'LL FELL WORSE. REVENGE ISN'T SWEET. THINK HOW HAPPY YOU ALREADY ARE. BUT I CAN CHANGE ALL THAT.

You can? How?

FORGIVE BEVERLY. THEN I WILL FORGIVE YOU. THE HATE AND SIN WILL BE BEVERLY'S PROBLEM AND NOT YOURS. YOU MAY LOSE MONEY, BUT YOU HAVE SETTLED YOUR HEART.

But Lord, I can't forgive Beverly.

THEN I CAN'T FORGIVE YOU.

Oh, you're right. Any more that I want revenge on Beverly. I want to be right with you (pause-sigh). All right, I forgive her. Help her to find the right road i the life Lord.

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